Hello
Someone who’s opinion I respect more than you’ll ever know told me last night that topherchris was a shallow person. If she knew me through that persona, she’d probably hate me.
I suppose I’ve been kicking the idea around for a long time — doing a real blog. A real “journal thing.” Maybe that comment is what tipped the scales, because it’s the next morning and here we are.
Of course, I’ve tried this before. Doing a regular blog. It hasn’t lasted. Frankly, I don’t know why anybody would be interested in what I have to say. But, thinking more deeply now, maybe it’s just easier for me to play a character because then when I get crap about what I do, I can always reassure myself with something along the lines of “well, the joke’s on them because this is all just a big act.”
Surely that does come in handy.
But yes, it’s not that it was a shock that topherchris and I are very different. “You’re much different than I expected” is a common refrain. I’m introverted, shy, insecure. Or, at least, I was once. Those aren’t words that most people would apply to my main internet persona.
On that point — that I was once those things: It feels that way. I’m not sure I’m technically a shy person today. Certainly, I’m still an introvert. But going through many of the experiences I’ve gone through over the past year gives a person lots of confidence.
That’s my advice to anyone feeling socially awkward: Become a minor internet personality, have people mail you presents, and receive a few marriage proposals every week. No problem.
Of course I’m kidding you. But you knew that.
This has been a stream of consciousness with some minor edits. I hope that’s what I can use this space for. I hope I stay focused.
Also: poop.
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